Hey there...
Me again...
just laying around rite now...
Already pack...
SO READY to go to Sarawak...
Hehe...
So long never take plane...
Then today...
So boring...
Nothing to do...
Got work...
But
I have no idea what to do...
Hahas...

Walking through the rain....
He wonders...
What is he doing....
All those messages....
Sent...
Never reply...
Have the love been destroyed...
By that person...
Who she made time for....
She will never have the time for that guy...
He's confuse....
What the fuck is happening he ask....
Why is there time for that guy....
But never for him...
He wonders...
Is this because of all the things he done in the past...
Hurting his family...
Friends....
Himself....
He wants to know...
IS this one-sided....
He wants to go back to his past...
Stay and never come back...
Will she care...
He doubt so...
She will care more for that guy...
Now he dispise him...
He wants to just dissapear...
In the cold night sky....
Seeing the concrete come near...
Seeing his life past by....
All the things he have done to everyone....
He just said sorry...
Hoping they will forgive his sins...
Hoping she move on...
Happy life....
To him...
His life is nothing....
He live by his words...
Hide the tears...
Let go a smile...
Everything will be fine...
People will think his a coward...
But...
What he have gone through...
Cuts his heart into two...
Even when it heals...
The scars haunt him...
He just want to see his blood flow away....
Giving joy to all who love to hurt him...
I don't mind....
He just want that to be his last gift to everyone...
And a thanks to all who help him....

The perfect woman...
You don't have to be beautiful....
You don't have to be perfect bodied...
You don't have to be sexy...
This all doesn't matters...
I would like someone knows the heart...
And don't forget wear the heart is...
Never break the heart....
Never want to see the tears of her guy....
Know whats rite...
Whats wrong....
Don't hurt her guy....
Itz ok if you are bad temper....
Itz ok if you are shy...
Itz ok if you are open...
As long there's the word like...
Itz ok to me....
Then we will word together...
To make the word to love....

Hehehe....Big smilez everyone

Hide the tears...
Let go a smile...
Everything will be fine...

My Ideal woman....

She dont have to be pretty...
She dont have to be perfect...
As long she have the heart...
My heart is hers...
Is love forever?
One ask me....
I dont know....
I think...
If you want love to last...
Dont give up...
Fight...
Die for it....
Sure enough...
Love will last...
Marriage doesnt mean that the fight has ended....
You have to fight...
And fight....
And fight....
Till there's no more fight in you...
Goodluck to all those fighting the war....
Of the LOVE....

Hey hey!!
Watsup people....
Well my eye hurts rite now...hahas....
Kena smack by my bro...
Cuz he say i "RUDE"
Fuckin moron....
hahas...
Niwez...
Today mother tongue pape was so hard...
My hands were cold....
Like on ganja or somethin...
Then when home to change...
Go somewhere....
Home rite now...
Tired...
Waiting for her to reply...
So slow...
And Cliff....
Relax...
The worst is not yet there...
Hahahaha....
Klah klah...
Tired ah...
Wanna go bath....

Truely hurt....

He's truely hurt....
By the one he least expect to hurt him this much....
He wonders...
Shud he forgive the one he loves?
Is the one he loves a fake?
Are all the words said fake?
Are all the kisses have no meaning?
He wants the easy way out....
The one he loves lied to him...
The lowers way a person can deceive him...
He just wish he can die....
He just wish that god will take his life away...
He just want his suffering to end...
He's confuse...
He feel everyone just want to hurt him...
It must fun to hurt him...
Like a game or somesort...

He can't seem to trust her...
She seems to be hiding something...
He dunnoe...
Is it his mind playing tricks on him?
Or is what he is thinking true??
Dilemma is falling on him...
He's really confuse...
In front he smile...
Behind...
He is truely hurt...
She don't this....
That he is truely hurt....

Hello!!
Me again...
Wah...
So tired....
When out with yayang and her bro....
FUn...fun lah...
Tired...Very...very tired....
Got a new t-shirt gonna wear to sarawak...
Hahaha....
Can't siak....
So long never take plane....
Hmm...
So much thoughts...
Its clouding my mind so much....
Haha...
Klah see you all later.....
Kene mandi arh...
Mother bising!!!

Hi everyone!!
Hehe....
Realli bored rite now....
Wishin u were rite here now....
Missin ur huggies!!

Well today was kinda fun...
Ate a lot at mother tongue intensive....
Stress sey....
Monday O LVL!!!
Fcuk...
Hehehe....
I'm totally not prepare for....

Then afta skool when to lib...
Read some magazines...
Oh my god...
I wish i had a car....
so cool....
Can show off....
Hahaha....

Ok...ok...back to reality....
tomorrow yayang goin Johor!!!
Alah...
Then me be lonely...
I'm Mr lonely...
I hav nobody....
Nobody want me...Eeeee...
Heheh....
So staying home...
Lepak-lepak...
Study peribahasa or what....
heheh...
Tatz all i hav plan for....
So c ya all tomorrow....
Bye2....

Hey there....
Me again...
Today is tuesday...
For all those who's still lost in time...
Today fun really really fun!!!
Kacau yayang like crazy...
Rite now nothin much...
Just surfing through net...
Tengok2 friendster...
Hehe...
Cute yayang...
Me looking at the pictures i took of her...
Haha...
She's a beauty...
I'm ugly...
Beauty n the beast hahaha

Why?
I'm so confuse...
Why?
You know it hurts me...
But you still do it...
Do you care?
Do you love me?
Why?
I'm so confuse...
you treat me like heaven then you want to sent me to hell...
But what the hell...
Who am i to say this to you...
The word that i will say will have no meaning...
Cuz u dont treat me like one...

Hey there!!!
Me again....
Hahaha....
Kind of sad....
Hahahah...
Still stuck to crucify my love...
Still piss off...
Anniversary..still can do ths stuff wit those buaye....
damn it arh...
Irritatin...

Halo!!
Today is monday for all those whu is lost in time....
Nothin much at skool...
had mother tongue intensive...
Fun...
Dun noe why people say not fun....
To me fun cuz got FOOD!!!

Then after that makan at canteen afta skool...
First i see the guys go home so fast...
Must be goin somewhere...
Hahahah....
But today...felt a little down...
Becuz of one action...
Hahaha....
I'm just too sensitive...
Nev mind...
Itz ur life do what u want...
Berani buat...Berani tanggung...
So tatz all....
So BYE!!

Hey there...
Sunday evening rite now....
God only knows what i'm feeling....
Been listening to sad songs continuously....
Shed a few tears...
I don't i kind of hook to Crucify My love....
Itz jus so sad....
Really...
Seriously...
i tink even guys will cry to this song...
If they understand the lyrics...
Hahaz....
The piano jus make it really sad...
Ask Jee...
Hahaz....
Today...
Done nothin much but laze around....
Lil kuzzies...
Screaming and fighting...
What to do....
Kids...
So brought them to Causeway point...
Bought them ice-cream....
Hehe...
Then they all go kiddy palace...
Wah Liao...
Plz remid me not to bring them there...
GOD!!
I want this....I want that...
Man....Kids really want everything...
Even some expensive plastic(TOYS)
Hahaha...
Well thats all from adventure of man donut today...
I'll end with a chorus...

Crucify my love...If my love is blind...
Crucify my love...If it sets me free...
The shadows of the sky...
Wondering...
Is it a crime to love...

Motherfucking people...
Wat the fuck...every thing i do is wrong...
Even i do it properly...wrong!...
CB kia....
Fucck....
KKNCCB.......
Hey...i don need u all lah!!!

Itz so irritatin...
I can't keep nothing no more....
God...
Help me....
Just take my life away...

What are you doing behind me.....
Why don't you show it to me.....
Maybe you're no longer who you used to be.....
Maybe that feeling has departed.....
And maybe if one day we met again....
One thing I ask of you....
Please don't question me again....
There is no need for you to ask again.....
Keep it all to yourself.....
All the guilt you're looking for.....
All the feeling you have given.....
I know it all....
And I'll keep it too...

There are some who hate her
There are some who need her
There are some who fall on their knee loving her
There are also some who cruelly torture her

This is the live of the butterfly of the night
Working risking all of her
A smile on their lips, soft seducing words
To all of those who came
Is it a sin she is committing
Are those who came saints
At times she smiles in her tears
At times she cries in her smile

Let whatever happens happen.
What she know is that God loves his people
Let whatever happens happen.
All that she knows is how to stay alive

Trust is so easily lost....
I don't know what to do now....
Does promises mean anything???
I kind of gave up on promise....
There's no such thing....
Itz jus rubbish....
Rite?

I don't know what to think...
There's so much pain...
I feel like crying...
But i'll will not let a single tear drop....
I just want to die...
I don't care if anybody says i'm a coward...
I want the easy way out...

Kerinduan yang dirasa....
Tidak berguna lagi....
Aku dah tak tahu apa yang nak dikatakan...
Aku mahu hilang dalam pekat malam...
Emosi yang tak guna...

So much pain......
Go on....
I don't care....
I'll enjoy it.....

I'm so confuse.....
I don't know what to do....
Tears keep forming....
I'm really suffering....
I won't tell nobody....
What I'm going through....
I shud live by the word....
Hide the tears...
Let go a smile...
Everything will be fine...
I'll hide my tears...
Go on without showing pain...

Haiz...My day spoilt again...TANX PEOPLE!!
Fcuking ass....
Nag...nag...nag....
Thats all she noe....
Haiz...at least i hav my yayang to turn too...
N my new phone....
Yeepee!!! Finally...waited so long...u can ask amir...
Klah..wanna go makan maggi....
So long & goodnite.....

Aku tetap bercuba...
Aku tak nak membuka mataku...
Melihat kau tiada disisiku...
Walaupun aku marah...Aku tetap sayangimu...sepenuh hatiku...
Kau seolah-olahnya...kekasihku yang tersatu...
Yang menyayangi...
Yang memberi pelukkan ketika masa hampa...
Yang memberi ciuman manis apabila berasa sedih...
Yang akan memarahiku jika salah dilakukan ku...
Aku mahu kau disisiku...
Hingga terakhir...
Aku akan menjagamu...
Sesiapa yang membuatmu nanggis...aku akan membuat mereka nanggis...Walaupun aku pernah membuat kau nanggis...
Aku meminta maaf...
Aku tak sengaja...
Apa-apa yang diminta kan ku memberi...
Kerana aku cinta kepada mu...Syaza Nadia...

Evening everyone...
very tired today...
Spend almost my whole day with sayang...
Hahaha....Spend half the money i brought...
I just a heavy spender...Always spend..spend..spend...
Hahas...Brought mother's day gift for my mum and sayang's mum....
We spent like...almost 2hr choosing the beads...Made them some hp keychain ah...Hahaha...
Ate at cavana today....SEDAP!!
But i'm so hungry rite now...

Haiz...
But somethings troubling me...
I just don't understand...
Sometimes some people just won't give up...
They keep doing it...
Irritating...
Hey fella...
You reading tis...
Don't pushit...
Or some unsanitize shit will drop...

World is goin so weird....
People change from good to bad....
I don't know what the fcuk is happening...
Hahas...
I'm the one worrying...
I should be worrying bout myself...
Sometimes...
I wonder...
Did i make a right decision?
Did i make a good decision?
Will my decision haunt me...
Shall i just lie about it...

Di hentian ini ,Tertinggal dalam kesunyian
Di hentian ini ,Bermacam bayang menjelma
Kau nyalakan cinta
Terbakar jiwa yang begini
Kau curahkan rasa
Hanyut dilautan api

Cries will never be heard....
You will never understand me....
Nobody will understand what i'm going through....
I'll hide it with my smiles.....
I'll cry in my heart and not show it....
I will live by the phrase.....
Promise is just a word...
Nobody can keep their word....

I don't know what to feel anymore....
I don't knowwhat to do anymore....
Sadness overwhelm me....
Pain cuts through like a dagger.....
For now i will silence my voice.....