I can't tolerate my sadness
cause i'm drowning myself
I won't allow any hapiness
To myself...

Am I forced to have any regret?
I've become the lie, the anger, the hater
In my righteous own mind
I adore and preach the insanity i gave

No need the affection, it's only for the weak
No need for sympathy, the misery that is me
On bleeding knees I accept my fate

I've lost the ability to paint the clouds
I'm stuck in this slow-motion dark day

Far away is a place where I hide
the truth that have to be locked away

And so I hear my voice again
The tale of the bitter man, here I am
Shake the silence and hear what it says
The tranquil pride that become the lie

I keeping quiet...
I won't talk...
Enough...
Tatz will be the last word you will hear...
One day...
When the limit had been push...
I'll start my old life...
Which nobody know...
Tatz life...
Hide my pain...
Hide everything...
I had enough time talking...
Treat me anyway you want...
Do what ever you want...
I'm you want to make me angry....
Go ahead...
Nothin i do is gonna change anything...
Well...Well...Well

When the days.....
Where darkness and silent through the night...
I'm searching through the mountain for you....
Fearing the worst....
I did my lie...
Not for honour...
But for you...
I know...
If i lie to you...
Pain comes back...

Hey guys...
Just emo a little...
Bored sey...
Well today nothin much...
Got nothin to say lah....
But itz Shasha bdae!!!
My Adeqnye bdae....
Lotsa wishes from me...
K Gdluck in everything u want....

Well....tu je arh...
BYE!

Hello guyz....
I been wondering...
Does anybody actually read my blog....
Hahaha....
Tag lah...if you got read...Haha

Well!
Today is my birthday....
Bez....the galz singing my bdae song....
Class singing me bdae song....
Malu a lil bit...
Ok ok arh...
Hahaha...
Got onli $20 from my dad....Siket! Takpe arh....Janji ikhlas....
Then....
I got this stitching from Syaza....
Wow so nice...
Haha....
SO much beauty!!
REalli tanx yayang....
Appreciate it a lot...
Didn't expect it niwez tau....

Well today quite nice....
Quite pleasant....
Skool...
Got the counsillor thingy....MEREPEK...
Peeps were all playing around...
I was just reading lime the whole way....
During english...
DAMN FUNNY!
Waliou...
Danny fell down from the chair....
When he was disturbing Cliff....
WAT GOES ARD CUMS ARD!
Haha...
Well rite so tired....
Waiting for yayang msg....
Hehe...
Letz hope my prepaid tahan...
Klah...realli feeling so the dizzy....
Bub bye everyone....

I'll leave tis quote....
Have you thought about someone you love....
Have you thought about someone you hate....
If you thought about both...then....
ITz tyme you learn....
FORGIVE AND FORGET!!

Hey!
Waddup...haven't update past these few days....
When through lotz....
Realli tired...
BUT!
No more stress....
BUT!
Sway....
Tomorrow skool open....
Plz someone...
Burn the skool....
Hahaha
Kidding....kidding....
Realli hungry rite now....
trying to tahan my appetite...
MUS GO ON DIET!!!
Fatty fatty me!
Man! My babat...Mcm big mac siol!
Well...today...
Just go madrasah in the morning...
Realli fun!
Then after that....
At home only....
lepak-lepak....
Tahan lapar...
That kinda stuff...
Man....i'm realli not ready for O lvl....
Plz someone...
Shoot me in the head....
Hahas....
Stress now!
But....
Will try my bez....
Proof the policeman wrong!!!
Bloody HELL!!
But looking forward to ALLOWANCE!!! MONEY!!!
I'm broke....
Haha....
So i diet can save money!!!
And the bez thing rite now is!
*Jeng...Jeng...Jeng*
My birthday tomorrow!!!!
NC-16 here i come!!!
hahas....merepek me....
But...realli sway....today...
Just check my friendster...MY TESTI ARE ALL MYSTERIOUSLY DISAPPEAR!!!

Everything...
That we went through...
All the pain...
We went through...
Just end like this...
Great isn't it...
Wow!
5mths....
Ended this way....
Don't you just love it....
hahaha....
Because of peoples mouth...
This happens...
Sux rite...
Wow....
realli feel like going back to my past....
I want to be emotionless....

Why....
Its so sad....
People mouth....
They're pushing me....
I want to see their blood flow on the ground....
See them suffer....
Cut them up....
Slowly....
See them scream....
Oh...
What a wonderful sight it will be....
Don't you just love it....
You made me suffer....
For the past 16 years.....
I'll make sure you suffer....
For the next 16 years....
From now on....
You all won't recognize me anymore....

Hey...
Happy 5 mths anniversary for me....
Not so happyy though....
It feels so cold....
I feel like giving up....
Fighting something i can't see....
The word "everlasting" seems to fade away....
Feeling so down....
Really....cannot help it....
Sadness everyday....
Being threated so coldly....
By the person....
Who i thought was the sun to my dark life....
I guess...
God really have a funny way....
Of making happy dreams....
BAD...
I want to just disappear....
Some people just don't see their mistake....
Always thinking he'll be standing there....
But really....
I can't take this treatment...
What is happening to you....
Pls someone just tell me!
Fuck off...
Piss off...
I really got to stop crying....
Wishing that....
She become to the woman I fell in love with....
Pls....
If your there pls come back....
I want the woman who i fall in love with....
Please........

Hey there....
Just scolded by my mum....
Argh....
Nev mind....
Fuh....Dah lame tak update nowadayz realli malas sey....

Just now main baminton like crazy....
I on the edge of colapsing....
So tired sia....

Tomorrow my favourite day....lets hope no one destroy that...
But today was realli fun....
Yesterday wasn't so much....
Got my problems arh....
Common....quite use to it....

Then today...gave my lovely one...
A poem...and a letter....
Plus a gift....
Haha....
She happy....
So nice to see her smile....

Rite well just listening to songs....
Especially this song...
Kenangan Terindah....By Samsons...
Itz realli nice here's a quote i like:
Bila yang tertulis untukku
Adalah yang terbaik untukmu
Kan kujadikan kau kenangan
Yang terindah dalam hidupku
Namun takkan mudah bagiku
Meninggalkan jejak hidupmu
Yang tlah terukir abadi
Sebagai kenangan yang terindah....

Quite nice lah eh the tune slow....
Klah till here....
And yayang...You realli owe me testi on friendster!!!
I'm waiting!!
Check my nice skin tau....
Bub bye people...

P.S. I love you syaza....And i'm losing weight...tanx to badminton...

Dah...I wanna sleep ",

Hello!!!
Been so long i update....
So tired...
So busy sia...
Been listening to KENANGAN TERINDAH...
So nice the song!!!
Listen! Listen! Those jiwang peeps!

Today nothing much...
When to thee movies!!
Hahaha....Watch almost love....
OMG!! so sweet you know...
Gotta watch even if itz korean....
Itz realli romantic and FUNNY!!
Hehe....did some mischievious thing in the cinema...
Fun...

Then go...
SO bored!!....
Noone was around so....
Sneak a few ice-cream into my mouth!
Man....
I gotta control my appetite....
I'm eating like a pregnant woman....

FATTY!! FATTY!! ME!!!

Feeling so ever down..........
Hey!!!
You are treating me like SHIT!!!!